Oh, human consciousness is evolving quickly, mine anyway. I can see it in my art. Can you see yourself in your art? It is a big question and an important one. Why are you making art? What are you learning as you go? How much delight do you have in the process? How free are you to be yourself? By that I mean , how much are you worrying about what others are thinking of you and your art? My art journey seems to be a spiral shape -ever upwards– but circling around back to vaguely familiar territory (oh, I’ve been here before- Oh, I see…) and these huge realisations come about what has happened on the circuit around. I am not sure if the details are important to anyone else? All our stories are so similar at the deepest levels, but here is a little of mine….. I saw that my craving for body in my art–was at its deepest level my body wanting more attention, more recognition of it’s beauty and brilliance—actually it just wanted the inner critics to shut up and let it be, be itself with out being constantly thought of in a negative way by it’s own mind. I saw that my craving for bodies of couples in art was at it’s deepest level a craving for more intimacy with my husband– I saw clearly that our lives and our true work have no separation. So why have the craving to paint an idea/energy when you can actually experience the idea/energy in REAL LIFE… I also had deep desires to paint goddesses and other symbols of women’s power. I have been spending alot of time exploring the Divine Feminine in ancient history, before the advent of the patriarchal religions. I grew up going to a traditional Methodist church and spent alot of time in Sunday school. I ALWAYS have thought of God as MALE energy, and the women in the bible are either a virgin, a mother or a prostitute. Where is the female power? So what came to me (after studying and reading a lot) is that the energy of creation of course absolutely has to be 1/2 male and 1/2 female, how could it be otherwise…… and we all know this at a deep level. We all still say MOTHER EARTH, because we know this is a deep truth. Well, for me this was a huge realisation, like my energy could be aligned with my source completely. I feel stronger and more powerful than I did before. I feel free. And this too, is now showing in my art. Back to the abstract–letting go of what is going, letting come what is coming…. totally delighted in the process, the intuitive edge that I ride on while I paint this way…. I have done three abstracts in a row… and my palette is changing in an exciting way— This painting is called “Soft Vision” and is full of mystery– in the colour and the texture and in the intuitive way it was painted. But the evolution continues and I am already craving the “Goddess” or an “Angel” somehow the Divine needs to be more obvious in my work!!!! I would be interested to hear from others about they handle the spiraling upwards of their creative energy. And from anyone who has any intuitive flashes for me.
